Every. Single. Time.

Every single time I am ready to step outside, you are there to whisper “Wait a little longer.” Every single time my lips shape a smile, you are there to tell me there is nothing worth smiling about. Every single time I laugh, you are there to tell me that rich symphony will only fade…

Metamorphosis

I am writing this for anyone who is going through a difficult time, no matter what it is. It can be small or it can be life changing, but I believe pain is pain and we all speak the same language when it seems to overshadow the blessings in our lives. I’m talking about the…

Breathe.

One breathe. Then two. Then three breathes. That’s it, keep it going. Do not stop. Remember what happened last time we forgot to breathe? We lost control. Do you want that to happen again? I shake my head and my reflection nods. Good. Just keep the rhythm, don’t stray from it. It’s all in the breathing,…

Damn luck.

What is happening to me? When I wake, each breathe I take is heavy with the weight of the day ahead of me. I want it to end and it hasn’t even begun. There are so many hours to fill and my body is a pile of bricks. My chest tight with anxiety. The sun…

She.

She lives in a hole inside your heart and doesn’t pay a single cent. A bottomless pit of sorrow, her walls are bursting with portraits of different faces, all of them empty eyed and scarred. The cupboards in her kitchen filled with desires and dreams, all trapped in jars. On the refrigerator door, she keeps a…

Unraveling

I wake up everyday to the same thing. My skin, shredding. My bones, breaking. My mind unraveling. Demanding to be unmade. My conscience ready to fade. My soul begging to be remade. A new beginning, calling my name. A new start, away from the pain. Nails dragging down my mind. The screeching fills my head…

The shopping cart lady.

My shopping cart lady, with your fiery red dress. A walking flame passing by my window. I don’t know what’s in the air today my lady, because when the wind howls, I hear it’s cry. They tell me to ignore you but to never forget you. I don’t understand the hypocrisy. Can I tell you…

A silent promise.

“What are you doing here in the mirror? I haven’t seen you in a long time, ever since you turned away from me. Your body is starving, your soul deprived. I remember how it used to be. I barely recognize you. I can’t help but compare it to the leaves falling off the trees, the…

To My Oldest Sister,

I have written this post a hundred times and can still not find the words to express what I want to tell you. But hopefully you know what I am trying to say. You have spoiled me WAY too much. I have some serious expectations of people because of you. This may be an issue…

Its February!

Was it just me or did January feel really long?  I know I kept looking at the calendar and thinking to myself  it’s only the third week?! Come on. On top of that, I did not post nearly as much as I had wanted too but its been a crazy few weeks hence why I wanted…